Denting

Yesterday accompanied mum to Arab Street.And guess what she bought kain for raya next year.Wth.Kanchong right?I know.It was raining also and i was so scared man.The sounds of thunder and lightning really scares me off that i broke down when i hugged cikya.Cikya was shocked to see me that scared.Well there's also other reasons that i broke down.I don't wanna state it here.Let me keep it to myself.Met Idah darling to pass her leggings and ya chilled for a while at Mcdonalds.And home sweet home after that.And today i went for madrasah and sadly my darling fizah isn't here.But it's okay.Miss you babe.Anyway goodluck for your papers tomorrow!Baby Ayden is reaching soon so yah i gotta go now.Bye.Hopefully baby ayden can cheer kak fina up today okay?


























*I just wanna have the last
outing with you.As promised.

To Mr 26 June

A song that captured my heart and made me cry even when listening to it.
And i hope you know well how much heartbroken i felt.Terribly heartbroken.
Everything in this song says it all.And i miss the sweet moments i had with you
and letting it go is not easy at all.Seriously it's not.Just so as you know you are very special and important in my heart and everything was gone just like that.Everything was taken away from me.The one that i cherished the most and loved the most in my life.....


Dingin malam yang menyelubungi
Hening sayu dalam hati
Berbicara bersendirian

Ku rasa resah
Selama dibuai rindu
Pada cinta yang terlalu
Terpendam di dalam hayalan

Kan ku leraikan impian indah
Kepadanya ku berserah
Mungkin tak daya
Ku tawan cinta yang sama

Dinginnya getaran asmara
Sentuhan mula bermadah
Ku tak bisa juarai
Jiwa yang ku tak punya

Dinginnya bila kau berkata
Ruang buatku tiada
Memoriku gengamilah
Biarkan aku beralah

Dalam hatiku tiada dendam
Walau impian semalam
Masih mekar dalam ingatan

Kan ku leraikan impian indah
Kepadanya ku berserah
Mungkin tak daya
Tawan cinta yang sama

Memoriku genggamilah
Biarkan aku beralah...










Even if you are a million miles away
I can still feel you in my bed
near me, touch me, feel me

Just for you

Farhain.Kamu suka ya sama ini lagu?Sedih banget ya?Aku tahu.Aku sampai nangis sia.
Emosi banget deh gue ni.Ok nothing to blog about today.Bored,hurt and tired.So bye people!





Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku….

Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…

terhanyut jiwa ini, terjatuh dihatinya

Bersamammu

Jangan di ucap selamat tinggal
Pada diriku
Yang menantikanmu
Telah kau tunaikan seribu janji
Satu kau mungkiri hidup bersamaku

Tidakkah kau kasihan kepadaku
Yang mengharapkan cintamu
Mengalir airmataku
Merintih dalam pilu
Bila kau berlalu

Serikan semula
Mahligai hati yang lara
Bertahun lama ku tunggu
Bertaut cinta yang satu

Berikanku cinta
Sembuhkanlah luka lama
Selagi kasih membara
Kan ku setia selamanya

Jangan diucapkan perpisahan
Sayup suaramu
Mengirimkan rindu

Pasrahku didalam kerinduan
Kasih kepadamu
Sering di hatiku…



I was just browsing into some of the malaysian artiste photos and i love this the most.She's freaking gorgeous okay.I wanna be like her can?













To you:
I'm so sorry.I dunno what's wrong with it.
I feel so guilty here.Once again i'm sorry.

Ring the alarm baby!

Sometimes i wonder why people won't cherish their love ones.Well there's a reason behind it i guess.But hmph i dunno.If it happens to me i'll cherish my beloved one.I swear i will.Cause i know how it feels like when somebody is being treasured,cared and loved.Too bad i don't have all that.Maybe one day.One fine day yeah.So please people!Cherish your love ones okay!Hopefully.Alright.Back to business!I had a super long day today!Woke up early in the morining eventhough i was super sleepy due to late night calls from baby.Started off by doing household chores.Do what i'm suppose to do.And at that moment i just felt so lethargic that i could just pass out anytime.Met dear at platform.I thought i was gonna be late but it turns out that he is late by a few mins which is alright.Passed him whatever that i should and we went seperate ways.Waited for Ain.Bumped into indra and we chatted while waiting for my dear princess to reach.Went to gym.Mum let me go.Gym was okay today.Had dinner after that.Bused back home.I was so tired and i slept in the bus.Tomorrow will be a new day for me.And dear.I miss you alot okay.I just find you cute just now.Hahaha.Fina RANDOM YAW!Hahaha.Love you dear.Nites!

Aku.Engkau.Dia

Aku
terluka sendiri
mengenang nasib
nasib ditimpa cinta

Engkau
tiada menduga
aku merana
kerna mencintaimu

Kau mencintainya
aku kecewa
dia yang kau puja
tentu bahagia

Tapi aku
sendiri memendam rasa
apa yang kurang
pada diriku

Kehampaan ini
biarkan kutanggung sendiri
asal kau bahagia
hidup dengannya

Aku engkau dan dirinya
telah terjerat
dalam gelombang cinta





Untukmu,

Sungguh aku terlalu rindukan masa lampau
Masa dimana banyak kenangan indah aku bersamamu.
Walaupun hanya 5 bulan masa itu berlalu.
Maafkan aku jika dirimu terluka.
Sedikit pun aku tidak ingin lihat dirimu terluka
dan berairmata.
Dan ianya sudah terjadi dan aku rasa terlalu berdosa.
Berdosa kerana dirimu sudahpun terluka dan berairmata.
Maafkan aku sayang.
Diri ini tidak dapat lagi menahan rasa rindu terhadapmu.
Setiap malam tidurku hanya bertemankan airmata.
Seandainya masih ada lagi cinta dihati ini
akan ku benamkan serpihannya untuk selamanya.




-Malamku hanya ditemani airmata.

Bertamu Dikalbu

Basically today i had a long day.Woke up early at 9am today.Seriously i am very very tired okay.And ya i dunno why but i am a little emotional today.Simply i hold back my tears all the way.Only god knows how i felt just now.Plus i heard some sources that told me a fucking bitch is not happy with me.Fuck off you bitch!I had never disturb your life so you better mind your own business and shut the fuck up okay.I hate you!You fucker!Just what is wrong and what is your problem jyeah?Why?!Argh i feel like killing you okay.I just don't like it ok.I mean i never interfere with your life so don't be such a busybody and kaypoh about me okay.Fucker!





And love,i miss you!

Baby

Hey i'm back here.I'm tired man.Man oh man.Lazy to elaborate here.Geez.Well today i had my fringe rebond.At last.Hehe.It took 2 hours man.And i fell asleep.Bla bla bla.Chatted with Toms.I want his nephew ok.So cute lah.The name also very long.Muhd Syafiq Haikal.Wth.And toms you uh also same.Nama anak sendiri in future glamour nak mampos.Seri Marcella Adyana.Glamour or what sia.Laughed like hell thinking about this thing when we still have a long way ahead.LOLS.Berangan sia.Ok whatever.Hahaha.



P/S:Firdaus!i want that book!

Us

Today was like a SUEY day for me.Why?Firstly i missed a bus.Then the train.And i was LATE for school.Fucker!Very suey sia!Sheyra didn't turn up for school.You bubble me uh you.I was so called alone in school okay today.Members all go home.And left me and indra.Lucky there's him.If not i dunno what i'm gonna do in school.I am like stalking him sia.While waiting for art lesson the both of us took some pictures.Then ya Miss Mona was shocked to see me in school.But whatever.I used her comp and surf the net.Bla bla bla.At 2.30pm sharp i went for detention.Loner sia.I slept all the way!Baik pe!Hahahaha.Ok gtg.Mum needs me!Bye!

Life isn't the same without you.

I'm feeling so demoralise and things weren't the same like what it used to be.Like what i want it to be.You left me just like that and it saddens me that you really test my patience yesterday.And why is that so?Do you know i was so hurt.I still remember on the night of 11 september.The moment when we hugged and the moment that i almost broke down you did promise and assured me that this won't be last time.And now what?It all ended just like that.Come on.What's happening man!And this silly me here just can't stop crying!WTF lah!Just why i have to go through this bloody phase again?

Perjumpaan Hari Raya 2009

Perjumpaan hari raya with madrasah friends was awesome and sorry to post about it 3 days after the event.Busy lah okay.N levels.So yah.Let the pictures tells the story.








































Walaupun mulutku pernah bersumpah
Tak sudi lagi jatuh cinta
Wanita seperti diriku pun ternyata
Mudah menyerah

Walaupun kau bukan titisan dewa
Ku takkan kecewa
Karna kau jadikan ku sang dewi
Dalam taman surgawi

Mr 26 June 2009

To you Mr 26 june.




If you are reading this i think you should know who you are.It's been almost 4 months we knew each other and you are the best thing that had ever happen to me.I still remember the first time that we talked on the phone.We shared so many things.And i still remember we talked on the phone till 5am.And the next day 7am.It's like never ending talking to you.You were just amazing.I missed that so much but there's nothing i could do now.I've lost you.I've lost everything from you.On 11th september was the best day ever.We met up and on that day i just felt that i really belong to you and the world is just like spinning around me.And every touch from you was just like magic to me.And i lost all that now.There is just so much memories i had with you eventhough it happened for a short time.Frankly speaking you are a great guy.It's hard for me to find a replacement.A person like you is just so great.With the personality that makes me fall for you.The love we shared all these while.It's just like a dream come true.There's just too much to list about you here.I kept reaping and my heart is just tearing apart.You gave me so much confidence and guide me through all along without fail.You sacrificed and make time for me.You take the risk and i know it wasn't easy on your part.I fall in love with you not because of any motive but i'm really pleased with the way you are.I felt that my happiness is with you.But now everything is broken.I can't help it but i just couldn't stop crying whenever i sit alone reminiscing about the best time we had.Looking at our photos that we took really breaks my heart.I just miss you so much.If you could still remember the phonecall.That phonecall.We sang on the phone.We listened to songs.It was our favourite.Our mum love the same songs.It was a coincidence.We sang along till 4am in the morning.I still remember how you bring up and build up confidence in me.Now there's no more sayang.No more baby.No more darling.No more hugs and kisses.No more love between you and me.And i love you.I do.So much.I just want you back.I JUST WANT YOU BACK.I just hope you don't forget about us.The memories.




I just hope you still remember these lines that
you used to say to me...

*** sayang fina sebanyak buih dilautan
dan sebanyak bintang yang berkerdipan di dada langit...

Dilemma

Today was so called the last day of school.Yessa!At last i'm free from school.Tired man!Art and N levels are back.Argh!Mug Mug Mug!Well,its okay.Suffer now.Enjoy later!And i can't wait for that man!By then i will be havoc-ing my life man!To the fullest!I'm tired and i wanna sleep okay.Goodbye dunia!











No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
Boy, you know I'm crazy over you