Just Dance.

I'm currently at home now.Am having flu and diarrhoea.Wth.Stupid.Gave school a miss today since i'm not well.Anyways,i am so bored at home now.Just watching some dealova indonesia movies.Cried.heheh.so emotional lah deyy.So yah i'm now off to the toilet and have a nice bath.Chao.








Syahmi,I missed you alot JERK!
You are like a beautiful melody in my heart
that echoes my longing for you.
All i ever want to be is the most beautiful dream in your sleep.
All i want to be is something that you would always long for.
I just missed you alot..TTM

Teardrops on my guitar...

I just dunno why but my life seems to turn out unLUCKY.I'm so frustrated with my results firstly.And yeah its fucking atrocious.Seriously it is.Believe it or not more than half people failed english.Fuck.What the hell man.And whats more another hell is waiting for me next week.What else if its not for teacher-parents meeting session.Damn.I dunno how mum will react.I'm just afraid that she get too shocked that something might happen to her.Oh god please.Don't bring hell to me seriously.I just had enough of it.And enough is enough.I'm tired of it.I really am.Sometimes i just felt that the end of it is better.Sometimes i feel like running away from all these.I may put on a smile but its just a fake smile of mine.Too many things happen and too many distractions had happened and because of that i became like this.No time for crying and regrets because there's still an O LEVEL paper waiting for me.Malay O levels coming in just less than a week.Come on jiayou Fina!Tomorrow madrasah.WTH.Time really flies and days pass so quickly.Family outing at west coast park was okay.It's just that i dunno why my cuzzie just won't talk to me.Come on cuzzie.It really is not you just now.Well whateverlah.Asalkan kau bahagia lah nak.








Maybe you might be thinking that i'm strange.
Yes i might be.
When i get the news from your mouth my heart broke
a million pieces.
Maybe you never knew that i had given portion of
my heart to you.
Maybe you never knew that it's you that i've fallen for.

I'm so sorry if i have to react in a manner that is not me.
Not the real me.Not the real Syarafina Shahreen.
Shocked to see that you actually cared about my self-being.
You could even sense something is wrong with me.
I am very quiet and not talkative?
I'm like avoiding you?
Strange with it?Worried?
Yes i used to be so talkative to you but i'm not now.
Cause i dont want history to repeat itself.
I love you but i don't wanna hurt myself.
I don't want to put any hopes cause i knew
you are like one in a million stars that i've been wishing for.
A star that i've been trying to grab for.
You now belonged to someone.
And i don't know why i'm feeling so sad and upset.
I just have to let you go.I really have to.
Eventhough it's hard.I just have to no matter what.
I have to get on with life with another person.
I'll always pray for your happiness like i always do.
And lastly to her,
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love and never hurt him.
Cause he is the best loving,charming and caring guy that i've ever known.

Cinta sampai disini sahaja sayang.

Pernahkah kau merasakan jantungmu
berdegup kencang disaat melihat
seseorang yang kau cintai?

Pernahkan kau merasakan pedih
dan sakitnya hatimu apabila
sebuah ikatan cinta itu berakhir
tanpa alasan?

Pernahkan kau merasakan titisan
airmataku yang jatuh menitis di pipi
atas sebab terlalu merindukanmu?

Adakah kau tahu bahawasanya aku seperti hidup
semula kerana munculnya dirimu
dalam hidupku?

Dimanakah janji dan dimanakah kata cinta
yang dahulunya sering luntur dari bibirmu?
Dimanakah kasih sayang yang pernah kau
curahkan padaku walaupun sementara
sahaja waktu itu?

Jika kau sedang membaca ini,kau akan tahu apa yang sedang aku maksudkan.

Hurt.

I'm so disappointed with whatever outcome that has happened.It was terribly big disappointment for me.I didn't expect it to turn out this way but well this is what i get so i just have to accept it though.Just how am i going to tell my parents about this?I've been disappointing them time and again.Sometimes i felt that i'm a such a failure.I can't even satisfy my parents with good results.Why am i not like my brother?Why?Why is he so special.I just dunno why.Why is he born different from me.He gets all the love and attention and it seems that i'm so not needed in the family.


And Natasha.thanks for the encouraging words that you said to me.Appriciate it much babe.








I was shocked again
OMG YOU ARE ********?

Touched.

Ohyes yes yes!Exams are over and i'm just waiting for the results then.Ok bio paper on friday was ok i guess.But but but...my 2 great girls here really make my day yeah!Well we went Peninsular to have our LJS meal there.And haha we reached there at 10.59am.hahaha.So yah 1 minute before the breakfast time is over.hahahhahaha.Had our meal as usual and talk talk talk.And yes the one serving us at the counter look like Miss Erdawati.Was a little shocked heheheh.Ok we ended at 12pm.Wow!We took like an hour to eat but nah its ok we still have alot of time to spend.Ok next,we headed down to Esplanade!Chey.We saw people shooting.Jakun sekejap.Ok the 3 of us sat and chilled near the esplanade there.Camwhored.And catch things up with the both of them.And ok that day we saw quite a number of couples.Jealous kejap.But then there's this one couple ya tuhan ya rabbi ya rasul ya karim....Ok ah fine tengah berasmara but then the guy didn't realise that there's a bright green caterpillar on his head and it's crawling on his head.Eww its fucking digusting!While we were chatting suddenly out of nowhere there's helicopter and i swore it's f-ing noisy!So yah after a few hours of time spent there, we decided to go home as it was about to rain and yes it's going 4pm already.Trained back home.Ain and zurah were looking quite tired and so am i.But we had fun on that day catching things up.So yah i love you girls!


p/s:Ain,gue mahu gambar nya dong..mau di upload dehh.












Still,i couldn't stop reminiscing about you.
About your life and about yourself.
It is you that i miss
And it is you that i'm yearning for.
Am i selfish or is it you?
How i wish i am in your arms now.
How i wish i could even hold you.
I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact.
Show me you can laugh,
Show me you can cry,
Show me who you really are.
Deep down inside my heart
i know myself that i've given
my heart to you...

Exams Wo!

I'm back here again.I'm currently still having a fever NOW.Oh come on please go go away my dear fever.Not now please.Its exams period!Still have 2 more papers to go before i enjoy!seriously i need a break man!Gosh it's so tiring you know.Exams all the way.I can go berserk.So yay no more tuition for today till next week.Art?OMG!i've been slacking lately for art.Gosh i die!..............

IM~ HAYS

Basically today lunch with my girlfriends was the best.It would be much better if baizurah turn up too but she can't so yah.I ate chicken rice claypot.It was nice eventhough i burnt my tongue.Kes kebulor lah thats why.Makan kes tak menyempat nyempat.hahha.Ok then accompanied fida dida to the toilet but hancus uh tu anak.Her tummy ade problem.Macam macam.Bought honeydew juice and wow it's really FRESH!heheh.liked it alot.Bused back home with sheyra and walked home.And i swore it was freaking hot!And as usual i will be sweating like a PIG!Ohya forgot all about my exams huh.Maths was ok and SS was a disaster!Really a disaster.Just wait for the reults then.And tiday i didn't even bother to open my book and notes.I'm lethargic and i'm having cramps all over my body due to 2.4km run!My timing really sucks this time!Fuck!So yah i'm now chatting with my bestie Aishah and fida dida and i'm happy for aishah eventhough i'm sleepy and tired.*yawns*








We'll meet up soon okay since you promise it...ILYVM!

I'm not sure its you i'm in love with...

Damn i was so sleepy in class.Especially english lesson.Sorry Miss Lim but seriously i am so tired.No strength at all.Tired like fuck.OHNO Maths paper 1 and SS paper is on friday and damn bloody fool on friday also i have to hand in my sktches!Aiyo!I'm not really prepared for exams actually bt nevermind i have to try my best no matter what.JIAYOU!








Baby i'm missing you alot
I missed your touch and i missed your kiss...
I just missed you....

You got me going crazy over you....

Today had an okay day.For a start,we had our temperature taking exercise.It is so irritating.Seriously it's very ery irritating plus that damn noisy teacher of mine who kept wailing and screaming early in the morning.CRAZY WOMAN!Had a very long day today.Had focus till like 5plus and i swear i'm so tired.Had tuition till 10.And that's really tiring.Plus i have art sketch to finish up.Gahh.I'm gonna die man!die!













kutahu, kau selingkuh
kau duakan cintaku yang tulus
kau tahu, diriku
tak pernah aku berpaling dari dirimu
tega nya kau dustai semua ini ******
ingatlah janji kita berdua....

Now i'm broken and i'm faded...

Today was such a bored day.I dunno why but my mood really shut me off today.Maybe because of the bloody fuck dream?Argh nonsense.Was busy helping mum as my relatives are coming over.was kinda tired and sheyra sorry if i can't pass you the earpiece.i was seriously very busy.I stil have yet to revise my other subjects.Damn it.I really hate exams!













I wanna hate you but i just couldn't get you off my mind.
I want you to leave my world but i just can't stop thinking about you
I just want you gone but i know i'm stopping you.
I just can't go to sleep thinking of you.
I don't wanna cry again because of love.
I don't wanna be hurt and you did make a promise that you won't hurt me.
I just couldn't stop reminiscing your kiss that you gave me.
I should have never told you that i cared about you.
And lastly i missed you...I really missed you s***** JERK!