My last wish.

My weekends was great.Great as in GREAT.And i'm lazy for school tomorrow.Seriously lazy plus i'm having sunburns and its freaking pain.Oh gosh.Today's mood was off.Totally off.So whatever.And baby ayden came but he didn't cheer me up and again my mood is down.Down down down.That baby is so cranky today and i dunno why.Perangailah ayden today.So yah back to weekend.Went to East Coast and had bbq with my family.Sheyra came and all the way she was sleeping on my lap while waiting for her darling haziq to reach home.F turn up at midnight with his friend.While ya he met mum and ya.Everything went well.I really miss F alot.If only mum wasn't there i dunno what i'm gonna do to him.Ok shut up fina.No valentines for me this year.Kinda sad but sigh..I dun wanna say anything.And monday was a hell fun for me.SENTOSA with my people were so great.Eventhough i was being pushed into the water.Thanks eh indra.The water is freaking cold ok.COLD!But it was fun.So yah.Thats all i guess for now.






Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about


Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

Tears

I'm back updating my bloggy here.Things are different now.I dunno but it seems that everything are changing!The most drastic one is my family and of course my personal life.I dunno.When i woke up early in the morning,it's just like waking up from a sleep which are full of sorrows.Without me realising it,my eyes were filled with tears.And slowly it rolled down my cheeks.And i'm just so weak to go through all these alone.I just dun wanna cry anymore.I just find it irritating for me to start my day in school crying and tearing all the way.I really gotta be strong.I must.
And i really need you in my life..





Guy:Tell me, why are you crying?

Girl:Because I'm happy

Guy:And why are you so choked up?

Girl:From loneliness

Guy:And why are you squeezing my hand
So tightly
And your thoughts seem to be wandering?

Girl:I love you so much

Guy:Why?

Girl:Don't be so hard-headed,
Stop doubting me

Girl:Although in the future there's a large sky
I'm not afraid
I want to love you

Guy:Don't love me because you think I'm different

Girl:You don't think it's right
For us to spend this time together

Guy:Don't love me because I know what a lie it would be

Girl:If you don't think I deserve your love
Don't love me
I'm going to stay another day

Guy:Don't love me because I'm lost
Because I change the world
Because it's my destiny
Because I can't change
We are a mirror
And you are my reflection

Girl:Don't love me
To be dying in a war of regret and sad thoughts
Don't love me
Because in this world
This great love deserves to soar through the blue sky

Guy:I don't know what to say
That's the truth
If people want to want to hurt us, they will

Girl:If you and I part now
They don't matter
But in this world

Girl:Don't leave me

Guy:Don't listen when I say I don't love you

Girl:Don't love me
Stop breaking my heart with these "I don't love you"

Guy:Don't love me
Because my heart is breaking

Girl:That is useless
I will always love you

Guy:Don't love me
You have suffered enough
My heart has turned cold like a million winters

Girl:Don't love me
To forget about your gray days
I want you to always love me
You and I are changing
One with the other
And always together

Guy:This love is like the sun
That comes out after a storm
Like two comets in the same galaxy

Love from me to you.

The thought of you starts me trembling
A fire is raging deep inside my heart
I can still feel your body close to mine
The way you held me so tenderly
I still taste your kisses on my lips
Alone, I hunger for those kisses tonight
My mind recalls the words you spoke
The way your hands explored my body
The time spent with you passed quickly
but your loving has left a burning fire
A fire that only your love can put out and
I wait for your return with open arms.

I'm Sorry.

I'm back blogging.Had been very busy with life lately.School and everything.Sometimes i wish i could turn back the time.The best moments i had with my best people.In other words,HOLIDAYS!I wanna take a break man.Was at idah's crib yesterday.Took some pics.



To you baby.

Baby,i'm so sorry.
I never meant to hurt you.
I really appriciate your kindness.
And i couldn't get to repay all your kindness.
You know you meant the world to me.
It's my mistake i know.
I love you.I really do.
Please baby,I love you.
I need you in my life.




A silent ebony night
still no fear, no fright
coase I am not alone
There is someone who is known.
They are the tiny drops from the sky.
who are so pure that they connot deny
They quitely listen to all that we say then,
touch the earth or vanish in a bay.
I love to walk in the rain
cause no one can feel my pain.
No one can see me cry
cause tears mix with them and finally die.
I have zillions of such companions,
but still alone in the battalion.
Fighting against fear and lonliness,
And fatigue of the ruthless passiveness.
Will any one even come to ask?
To remove this fake cheerful mask.
Or these descended fays are the only one,
to support me in this lonely run.
Still my life leaves a question,
will anyone come to heal this repurcussion?
or i will also become like the drops from the sky,
and will mix with the earth and finally die.
Lonely, Lonely, Lonely forever...

Camp Viva 2010

Just got home from Camp.Damn.It's the worst camp ever.I swear it is.To make it short,the worst part is the night walk at the Southern Bridge.Like bodoh sia.But along the way irfan and shazuan kept cracking jokes which made me and sheyra laugh like mad woman.hahaha.Walk and walk and we kept walking till 5plus in the morning.Halfway walking we stopped for awhile cause there's a stupid express class lost their way.Best uh kan.We have to wait for them.And while waiting for them me and sheyra decided to lie down at the carpark and have our naps.Half an hour later the express class were found.Haiyo.Fed up sia.Lost lah what lah.And then we continue with our walk.And another stupid thing happen again.The one who lead us really test our patience.She make us walk the long way back to school!Wth!I was so pissed off.I was cursing all the way man.Got shortut don't wanna use.Use the long way.Like come on lah.Everyone is so tired already and she make us walk the long way.Stupid sia.Once i reach school i went to had supper-breakfast and head on to classroom and sleep.Slept for 3 hours only.Tired man.Head home and sleep all the way.
Lazy to upload pics.Pics soonz.

It's yesterday's post.



Syarafina is dead.