I can't live without you.

Started off my day with school of course.School wasn't okay at all today.Thinking about what happen during my english lesson make me regret having to choose this path.People just don't know what i'm going through and why i became like this.People just jump into conclusions.And getting to know that now the teachers in my school are talking about me really makes me feel so sucky.If you think that i'm just wasting your time and i'm just wasting my time then don't teach.What will you feel if somebody says this to you?

"I've heard alot about you from the teachers last year that you have been sleeping in class throughout the year and i dunno how come you are here in sec 5.And what have you been doing in school?And all the teachers are talking about you syarafina."

Like wth.And this is just a summary of it okay.I don't wanna write everything down here.It pisses me off.Yes i admit i've been sleeping throughout the year last year but she's like trying to put it in a way that i don't deserve to be in this school and be in sec 5.I know i just scrape through but this is not bringing me up.I just felt that she's trying to break me.Yes i know she's trying to push me and she wants the best for me.Sigh.Sometimes i wonder.I wonder why life is just like a battlefield?Not only life but also my love life.It's like i'm going through all this shits again and again.I just felt that life is so unfair.Definitely unfair for me.


I just want the old us back.If you get what i mean the old us back.The smile that you used to put it on my face.That smile.That laugh.But now,my face is just full of sadness,sorrows and tears.If only i could bring back that 11 september.The night of 11 september that we had....=(





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