A year has passed and yeah alot of things has happened in that particular year..Eventhough some of it is quite saddening but i will try to get it off my mind and keep all the good and sweet memories with me.Me now blogging at 3.07am.I just couldn't shut my eyes so yah.There's alot of things oogling in my mind and i just couldn't let it off.Eventhough it's already 2009,i just can't stop thinking of the things and stuffs that i've done in the year 2008.Can't wait to see you guys!
Missed you guys alot!!!!
This year is my crucial year.A very crucial one indeed.I have to study hard and not give up and not even letting down my parents and even my teachers with my atrocious results.It's n levels Syarafina!Buck up girl!Wake up!I'm starting tuition already and trying to catch up and covering some of the topics which i've left out in 2008.It was really stressing me out.But i had no choice but to go on and have this in mind that "It's never easy before hardwork".A phrase quoted by someone who gave me strength and courage not to give up.I had to study hard and not playing around anymore.It's not easy being in life.There will always be ups and downs.So fina,like what Mr Loh has said upteen times to me,study hard and not let my parents down.
I have something to confess and i just dun wanna hide it.This thing goes to Natasha."Natasha,i just want you to know that i really am very very sorry.I know i've changed so much that you don't even know who i am.I know i've been so selfish and i've hurt you upteen times.And sometimes i dun even realise that i've made a mistake that actually has hurt you deep inside.I'm not a good best friend whom i should be.I've neglected you and sometimes i'm confused myself why i have to drift away from you.I'm just being stupid and silly for not treasuring you as my best friend.Well it's no use for me to brood over it.It has happened and i've hurt you alot.Even if you are not ready to accept me back as what i used to be then i had no choice but to accept it.I can't force you either Natasha.Even if we can't be as best friends as we used to be,i'm ready to accept it.Even if you hate me,i have to take it.Just two words.I'm sorry.How i wish i could turn back the time.But..it's rather too late for it then..I know i've done alot of sins towards you but seriously,i'm sorry.Just hope that everything turns out right.I missed the old times we share our sweet and sour moments together.And also when the times we had a tiff over some silly things and it just make me realise how much important you are in my life.I was the one who's so stupid to have lose all that.I should have treasured you and cherish all the moments i had with you.Now i realised that it's useless not having you again.My happiness just gone in seconds.I missed ya alot.Seriously speaking i missed ya, natasha.I just hope that you could give another chance to be who i am again.The old Syarafina and not the plastic,hipocrite girl who doesn't know how to cherish her love ones.I'm so sorry once again for hurting you and had messed up with your life.
Tuhan,aku khilaf dan aku kesal akan semua perbuatanku
Aku telah melukai banyak hati manusia yang aku sayangi
Dan aku harap tahun ini akan menjadi tahun yang lebih bermakna bagiku
Kabulkanlah doaku ini ya tuhan...
Aku pohon padamu,maafkan kesilapanku
Aku khilaf ya tuhan..Aku khilaf....
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